My dr appt on Wed went well, but he gave me a goal for the am bs to be around 110 and I keep hovering around 120! Argh!!!! It is so hard not to eat bread! Need some encouragement there. DH has been fighting this battle for years and it is so hard. I have been feeling less hungry and haven't had the higher levels that we saw at first, so there is improvement, but I know when I take these numbers to my md he's gonna give me that look. I need to keep trying to drink my water. On the days I do that I seem to do better with my appetite. My blood pressure is good and I lost a pound (that's refreshing! LOL!) and iron levels are a little low.

Also, he told me that because of the elevated sugar levels and apparently already larger than average baby, we will schedule an induction for around 39 weeks. Cool! Both my other kids were 41 weeks. That is so hard to wait that long. So that puts us somewhere around Memorial Day. Not sure how the birthday party thing will work out later on, but that is the least of my concerns! Now if the baby would just flip around one more time I(he/she's breech right now) we'll hopefully avoid the c-section and have it made! I do NOT want to get cut open. I will cry. I am a horrible patient. But . . . I am so excited to meet the little one, I can hardly stand it! I have concerns about the postpartem times with the Lupus and all, it could be really hard or not, but I have to be patient and endure either way. The Elizabeth Elliot devotional this morning is a good one for me:

No Evidence of Progress

At times nothing seems to be happening. So it must be for the bird that sits on her nest. Things are apparently at a standstill. But the bird sits quietly, knowing that in the stillness something vital is going on, and in the proper time it will be shown. It takes faith and patience for the bird, and such faith and patience never seem to waver, day after day, night after night, as she bides the appointed time.

Restless and doubtful we wonder why we have nothing to show for our efforts, no visible evidence of progress. Let us remember the perfect egg--unchanged in its appearance from the day it is laid. But while the bird waits faithfully, doing the only thing she is required to do throughout those silent weeks, important things are taking place.

I wait for the Lord. My soul waits,

and in His word I hope;

my soul waits for the Lord more

than watchmen for the morning.

(Ps 130:5, 6 RSV)

So . . . this am's bs was 113. Pretty good. I feel pretty good about that. Probably good enough to stay off of the insulin - yay! And I have been trying to drink my water! Managed a liter yesterday - no small fete for me! I allowed myself one cup of decaf in the morning and then only water until the container was empty, I managed it by dinner and got to have some diet soda! Hmmm . . . no milk, though. I'll have to watch my calcium intake.

Oh - so I don't forget:
Sunday 4/14 fasting bs = 140 and aftermeal bs = 177
Monday 4/15 fasting=108 aftermeal = 156 (That's a little better!)

Well, I had another blood glucose test and it's running high. Bummer! Not high enough to be technically gestational diabetes - I think I will be able to control it with diet. Unfortunately, the higher blood sugar is accompanied by higher risks for pre-eclampsya, macrosomia(BIG BABY), and c-section. Selfishly, I was able to find something to be happy about - this also increases the possibility that we may not go past 38 weeks! Of course, I want the baby to be healthy and "cooked", but I'm loving the two weeks early instead of two weeks late idea! I've been real good at eating right - but only for about 24 hours! I need a cheerleader! And my poor family! I have been so irritable and tired and worried. I know I shouldn't let myself get so bad, but it feels out of my control! Maybe getting the sugar regulated will help. On a related subject, I got the best info from Leanne Ely at FLyLady today:

*75% of Americans are chronically dehydrated. (half the world population is likely to be dehydrated).

*The thirst mechanism in 37% of Americans is so weak, it is mistaken for hunger (because they don't drink water!)

*Even mild dehydration will slow down metabolism as much as 3% (weight loss aid!)

*In a University of Washington study, one glass of water shuts down midnight hunger pains in almost 100% of dieters! (odds are, it will work for you!)

*There is preliminary research that indicates that 8 to 10 glasses of water a day (8 oz. glasses) could significantly ease back and joint pain for up to 80% of sufferers.

*Lack of water is the NUMBER ONE trigger of daytime fatigue! (now you know how to get up and get going again!)

*A mere 2% drop in body water can trigger fuzzy short-term memory, trouble with basic math and difficulty focusing on the computer or reading printed material.(body water drops when we don't drink our water!)

*By drinking a mere 5 glasses of water a day, you decrease the risk of breast cancer by 79% and you are 50% less likely to develop bladder cancer. (WOW!)

SO GO GET A DRINK OF WATER!